As the clocks go back, and the shorter nights begin, maybe, just maybe.......
Following weeks of inactivity, as the malaise set in, I've sat back in the grubby old leather chair, and cast a weary eye over the vacant space, that was my work area.
One of the problems of suffering from Depression, is that the slightest stupid thing, can set you off on a downward spiral, and once you start, its difficult to pull yourself back up again.
I cleared my desk,the constant image of piled up crap, everytime I went into The Pit, a reminder of the things I could not do. The last thing I finished, was a figure as a gift, for my good friend Juliette"s birthday,way back in July, and since then, I just cannot find it in myself to lift a paintbrush, let alone anything else :-(
Today, I did this
Opened a box, and dug these out, because I need to inspire myself to do some more work. if I can get one hobby back, then I can build on the other things I like to do.
Right now, gaming is beyond me, I can't get an army finished to save my life, but by finishing just one model, I prove to myself that I can do this, I can build something that other gamers might be interested in, and the snowball effect might just begin to roll!!!!
Lets hope so eh gang :-)
Wow, as someone also suffering from a bit of long term malaise I sympathise. Great work mate, love the truck/armoured car in the middle very cool
ReplyDeleteAny journey, whatever the distance, begins with a single step and then another...
ReplyDeleteA bit trite maybe but nevertheless true. Today you have done something, tomorrow you will probably add to that. If not tomorrow maybe the day after. It's not like you're working to a deadline in any case and it is meant to be fun and not work.
I haven't put brush to figure for years, yet I still get enjoyment out of the hobby in spite of that. At some point I hope to paint again and I'm sure it will happen at some point.
Just try not to be too hard on yourself! Been there, done that myself and as you say, not an easy spiral to get out of.
They look rather nice and I look forward to seeing the progress. Depression is a bitch and I wish you all the best handling it and getting back in the painting seat
ReplyDeleteIt's along time i'm waiting for the release of this armored car !! I hope it will come out one day ! (Fenris games I suppose :) ?) :)
ReplyDeleteand the moto too !!
Keep making those marvellous vehicles !!